I aM Me oN tHe inSide!!!

This is who I am
This is who I am

I am me on the inside!!! As wild as this may sound; I really can be judged by the way I look on the outside!! I don’t know if it’s just a Gemini thing or what,  but majority of people always know what I’m feeling or thinking by they way I look… I even have facial expressions for what I’m thinking like

Really? Foreal?
Really? Foreal?

Which usually means I only believe half or none of what you are saying… it’s funny because most of my friends and colleagues will normally speak for me… most of the time I have no idea I’m even making faces… you know that got me in trouble alot!!! I really learned to do it because when I conversate; I tend to dominate the conversation, therefore,  I learned to speak with my mind to get people to see I understand what they are saying but I’m holding back my comments until they finish their argument or speech… it really does wonders when I’m on the phone and I don’t want the person to hear me make fun of them!!! Well as for who I am on the inside if you see smile then you know I’m having a great time in that point in life, but if I’m dragging and really not paying attention to anyone then you know I’m just not having a great day!!! I really am a ressemblence of my inner me on the outside!!! I have never been good at hiding my emotions either!!! Well that’s me and I hope yall enjoyed it!!! Comment if you dare lol!!!
Masks Off

Three key goals

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I really want to inspire people to enter into the unknown and do it proudly!!! I’m not talking about doing something crazy like drugs or binge drinking!!! I’m talking about actually applying to a job they always wanted and getting it!! Or going somewhere they’ve always wanted to go but always made excuses as to why they can’t do it!!

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I want to get more people into reading what I blog about because it is genuinely me!! I dont go around copying what other people are doing but I do enjoy reading how others think. I want people to continue following me because they enjoy my unique blogs and want nothing more but to see what’s on my mind!!!

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I want to see three times as many comments on my blogs as I have already because I enjoy positive criticism. .. I really like knowing that I misspelled a word or I actually have someone who is against what I have to say!! Lets keep up the contact and continue to interact!!!

There is No Better Family

If I was “snobish” about anything; I’d have to admit it is with my family!! I always tell people that there are no other families combined that is better then my family! You see we have the best laughs, fights, and overall story.

Our laughs are usually at someone’s expense and most of the time if there is no come back then we don’t feel it’s worth laughing about. We will literally sit back and tell every “your momma” joke in the book and still come up with new ones. There are times we will just sit around and tell jokes but we still resort to poking fun at one another because we all know it will be just that A JOKE!

Now our fights are always because of a significant other but we will always welcome themessage back over because we know there really isn’t much we can do to keep them apart. We enjoy spending time together especially going out and about because there is no fight we really can’t win!! I mean you have my older brother who has a mouth piece and really bad temper… my little brother who is a lose canon and me well I’m a Gemini lol!! Enough said.

Our story are the best because no matter what kind of story we tell there is always a sound effect or a visual display lol. We can’t tell a story without getting the listeners involved… I really don’t think I’ve heard better stories because in ours u will feel what we felt the moment we get to the feeling part lol

Truth Serum?

If I had a truth Serum it wouldn’t matter because I can almost always tell when someone is being dishonest, but there is this one kid I would really love to try it with. I mean you know that whatever comes out of this kids mouth is going to be a lie the minute u look at him. This kid would really lie his way out of anything. His name is Jesse “bubba” perez… he is my cousins son and I can’t remember a time this kid actually said the truth for once… I know everyone is probably like give it to ur spouse or parents, but my spouse doesn’t exist at the moment in my life and I’ve already gotten my parents drunk enough to spill it!! Lol now I chose this kid because I really would like to know 1.Why do you lie all the time? 2. Do you really enjoy it that much? And 3. Can you stop and be honest from here on out? I mean that would really be amazing. It just doesn’t look right for a kid to sit around liYing every five minutes… I tried talking to him and telling him how he will lose all his friends and family, but he really doesn’t seem to care.. well that’s it for now… till next time 😉

Assholes Welcome

Most people wander why most of the people in my inner circle are such assholes and why I happen to keep them around for so long! Well I really enjoy brutal honesty no matter how it makes me feel and that’s the only truth you will receive from one of my buddies! You see these guys are the best advice givers because they don’t care how you feel; if what your saying sounds stupid or completely off the wall, they are not afraid of stopping you and letting you know! The truth will be distorted like when a woman asks, “does this make me look fat?” The usual response is, “no baby u are beautiful no matter what you wear!” That is so far from the truth especially after they buy it and after the first night almost everyone posted comments on how it really made her look fat… now she is sitting there looking at you with that, “wtf!” Look that we all know and dispise. .. well these guys will avoid all that and simply reply, “No, the dress looks amazing but you should get it in a bigger size!” It seems messed up but why lie? They believe like I do that the truth always comes around; therefore, just say what it is all the time and there will never be a fight! Some people can’t handle the truth and for them I’m sorry and glad your not my friend! I learned to be completely honest and my friendson really allow that to happen. If anyone of you has any pointers feel free to comment!! Brutal honesty is not only OK but welcomed!!

Welcome Home Joe

The day he got out...
The day he got out…

My brother just got out of jail after doing eight months for taking the fall for one of our many crazy parties back in 2009!!! He’s on paroll, but at least he is here and we are back to hanging out and drinking… I really missed not having him around; especially because he really knows how to tell it like it is. I never could sit back and be upset with myself or stay down no matter what the reason because he just wasn’t having that shit!!! I enjoy partying with him because there is always something happening but at least we stay out of trouble for the most part. I don’t think there has ever been a time when life was too hard for us. He always managed to keep me and everyone around up and positive! There is always a way out of something and there is no need to be down about it! He really made me try hard when I was in my senior yr of high school because when he tooknows the fall that was his one request to me! As you all know I was able to finish. I am always trying to help him stay on the right track because if it wasn’t for him I’d probably be in the same boat. I look up to him to get his fuck you attitude in the sense that life will keep one with or without you!!!

My brother Joe and I at slackers sportsbar
My brother Joe and I at slackers sportsbar
My older brother and eye at slackers bar
My older brother and eye at slackers bar
Just enjoying life like the good old days
Just enjoying life like the good old days

Endurance

I remember as a kid getting expelled from several different elementary schools. I would see about three or four different psychiatrists and psychologists a month. I was acting out because I had so much going on in my life and being do young with the ability to understand it all didn’t help. I would continuely fight and talk back to teachers, but I always made sure I was on top of all my school work; making it hard for them to hold me back or even understand why someone so smart would be acting out in the first place. My behavior and whole train of thought didn’t change until I made it to the sixth grade. I got tired of hearing my parents and teachers tell me I wasn’t going to amount to anything if I continued this behavior. I told myself that it was time for a change and time to show everyone just how much I know and understand. All three years of middle school I believe I only got in trouble twice and both times it was self defense, but the school took one look at my record and assumed it was my fault. I knew I needed to make a stand and get out of the “hood”(so to speak). I ended up applying to a Luis W. Fox Technical and Acedemic high school’s Law Magnet program because I always loved the idea of being an attorney and because it meant I could live anywhere and still attend. I moved out on my own sophomore year at the age of 15.  I then got involved with the wrong crowd and unfortunately started using drugs. I started hearing it all over again; everyone saying how I wasn’t going to make it across the stage or I was going to drop out. I especially would hear It from my father; therefore, the day I relieved my invitations and letterman I went and showed him and handed him some for his family and I passed some out to my family as well… the fact that I (a troubled child/drug user) made it through against all odds serves as a reminder that I can endure anything I put my mind to. All we have to do is want it!!!C360_2014-09-17-05-46-01-597

Class ring with the Buffalo as our mascot in the middle
Class ring with the Buffalo as our mascot in the middle
My letterman jacket for Law
My letterman jacket for Law
My '09 unique 1of20 letterman sweater for my Law courses
My ’09 unique 1of20 letterman sweater for my Law courses