Never forgotten in daddy’s mind….

Happy birthday S.D.PAREDES-V.

its been awhile but daddy never forgets how u made him smile
You run, play, go enjoy your day because no one will get in your way
Today you grow two be three years old but you better be good cus u know
Daddy is always proud of his pain in the but and never go away
Well keep on smiling, being happy, and free don’t let anyone keep u away from me
I will only be able to love you from afar but it’s OK because I our love is strong
We may never see each other again but keep smiling cus u and I know what really happened
Well now go and continue to grow till the time comes mommy let’s u know
By then u might really cry but always remember a daddy will always  try
Everything happens for a reason and I will keep our memories no matter what the season


We are too busy looking for answers to the obvious
Hope is there to show you that it’s your heart you need to trust

We forget that not everything that crosses our mind is true
Hope is there to show us what we already knew

We may never understand why things never go accordingly
Hope will always make things go perfectly

We tend to let the past catch up to us and ruin our life
Hope Cutts out all the uncertainty like a sharp knife

We may never understand hopes true power
Hope is just needed to keep your mind clear and focus on every hour

We need to lead everyday with hope in our heart
Hope will make everyday the best right from the start!!!

Thank you God

No matter how many times I try to stray from your side
You know I’ll be back hurt with no pride

No matter how much I want to give up and go far far away
You manage to find me and convince me you will always stay

No matter the forces of evil I join on my journey
You still help me see that the light is forgiving and lasts eternity

No matter how many people I worship over you
You continue to show me that your love is always faithful and true

No matter how much I fight you and say loneliness is my only faith
You bring hope and show me that I need to put u first and just wait

No matter how much the devil tries
You are my only savior and I thank you with all the tears in my eyes

No matter how many times people say I don’t care while I live
You are the only one who knows how much I give

No matter what anyone says about me to make them let go
You and me are the only ones who really know

For some reason


I will always miss coming home to you and mommy
For some reason you would wake up just to see me

I remember at your uncle’s party you wouldn’t stop crying
For some reason in my arms you were calm and I ain’t lying

I know I may not be around anymore like I would truly love to
For some reason I never gave up and am always willing to help raise you

I hope things are working out in your favor
For some reason I was sent to be your savior

If I could do it all again
For some reason I will do it the same to the very end

I know I should never have doubted mommy cus u I lost as well
For some reason I feel like that was a time I lived in hell

I may never get to tell you all this because I pushed so much
For some reason I just couldn’t keep yall in my clutch

I just hope if you ever see me in a picture or in life
For some reason you will remember how I never gave up and even tried making mommy my wife

I never meant to cause you so much pain
For some reason I just rather me be the blame

I am not that much of a bad guy as you may one day hear
For some reason I stepped up and you called me daddy with no fear

I will never know how someone not kin to me could love me so beautifully
For some reason you did it instinctively

I may not have been the man mommy kept trying to make me be
For some reason no matter all that and the drama the thought of yall makes me happy

I want you to grow up freely without seeing mommy cry
For some reason she needed to lie to make our happy memories die

I want you to know I will always see you as my own
For some reason the chances of us being a family again I have blown

I hope mommies new husband treats you like I did
For some reason I’ll never forget you kid

Now go and know a daddy’s love will only continue to grow
For some reason it will never get low



I remember a time when I used to “try”
All it did was let people down and make em cry
I remember not trying hard enough
So life became really tough
I remember when trying just didn’t cut it
I threw in the towel and finally split
I remember how hard it was to fit my “trys” into my real time
All it did was give me excuses to whine
I remember it all because of the pain and hurt I endured
Saying I will try really leaves the mined obscured
I also remember when I didn’t just try anymore
In the end I get taken advantage of and you walk out the door
I remember now why I say I try instead of just doing
Its cus no matter what you need time to figure out which actions are worth pursuing
I remember that just trying isn’t OK
The thing is no matter what you won’t stay!!!


Two angels?

Yall run around all day
When I’m sad Yall make me gay

I may seem upset alot
When the time comes you will know it was for not

Yall do know how to push me
When I start to fuss I stop cus yall are so happy

I may not always get yall things
When yall grow up it will be clear it’s because tio didn’t create a savings

Yall know just what to do to make me smile
when I’m upset it only lasts a little while

I would love to give yall the world
When the time comes lessons will be for told

Yall know how to live life happy and free
When I see it everyday I know yall are teaching me

I may not have a tia that wants to stick around
When the time comes it’s us she will have found

Yall may not have a real daddy
When yall grow up remember tio is all I ever wanted to be

I love yall no matter what
When yall grow up i hope yall will never forget that!!

Battle For The Net

If you woke up tomorrow, and your internet looked like this, what would you do? Imagine all your favorite websites taking forever to load, while you get annoying notifications from your ISP suggesting you switch to one of their approved “Fast Lane” sites.Think about what we would lose: all the weird, alternative, interesting, and enlightening stuff that makes the Internet so much cooler than mainstream Cable TV. What if the only news sites you could reliably connect to were the ones that had deals with companies like Comcast and Verizon?On September 10th, just a few days before the FCC’s comment deadline, public interest organizations are issuing an open, international call for websites and internet users to unite for an “Internet Slowdown” to show the world what the web would be like if Team Cable gets their way and trashes net neutrality. Net neutrality is hard to explain, so our hope is that this action will help SHOW the world what’s really at stake if we lose the open Internet.If you’ve got a website, blog or tumblr, get the code to join the #InternetSlowdown here: else, here’s a quick list of things you can do to help spread the word about the slowdown: Get creative! Don’t let us tell you what to do. See you on the net September 10th!

via Battle For The Net.

I aM Me oN tHe inSide!!!

This is who I am
This is who I am

I am me on the inside!!! As wild as this may sound; I really can be judged by the way I look on the outside!! I don’t know if it’s just a Gemini thing or what,  but majority of people always know what I’m feeling or thinking by they way I look… I even have facial expressions for what I’m thinking like

Really? Foreal?
Really? Foreal?

Which usually means I only believe half or none of what you are saying… it’s funny because most of my friends and colleagues will normally speak for me… most of the time I have no idea I’m even making faces… you know that got me in trouble alot!!! I really learned to do it because when I conversate; I tend to dominate the conversation, therefore,  I learned to speak with my mind to get people to see I understand what they are saying but I’m holding back my comments until they finish their argument or speech… it really does wonders when I’m on the phone and I don’t want the person to hear me make fun of them!!! Well as for who I am on the inside if you see smile then you know I’m having a great time in that point in life, but if I’m dragging and really not paying attention to anyone then you know I’m just not having a great day!!! I really am a ressemblence of my inner me on the outside!!! I have never been good at hiding my emotions either!!! Well that’s me and I hope yall enjoyed it!!! Comment if you dare lol!!!
Masks Off

The Book the Secret

Really great eye-opener
Really great eye-opener

As wild as this may sound; I started reading this book called The Secret, and ever since I have been getting a better view of life. Now I didn’t just go out and find this book I have this weird habit of putting my email into everything I see that says “email sign up!”… I don’t know about yall, but I like reading and learning new things from real people; therefore, when I see someone offering advise or books I am always willing to sign up. It just gives me something to do later. I don’t recall exactly which mailing list I was on when I was introduced to this new way of thinking. I was always so hard on myself and having lost my relationship, car, job, and apt. This was the perfect time to change the way I thought and start being more positive about life! I started reading this book, joined several affiliate programs, and now I am happy to say I get help from several people on how to promote and how to really get noticed. I really thought life was still going to be lonely for me, but then I met this amazing person who really seems to know how to mage me genuinely smile!!! She gives me hope when I was so used to inspiring others… life just seems to keep getting better everyday!!! I am now living what most call on the edge and really living like everyday were my last!!! All thanks to positive thinking and the willingness to learn. I truly believe that one small alteration in your day to day activity can alter your life… stepping into the unknown can really open doors